Me and you, feelings and words.
There are about 7 billion people on our planet, imagine that!
Try picturing a thousand million souls, bright little specks of invisible light going about their business all around the globe as we speak.
7 billion individual minds, both unique and beautiful in their own way and yet we are all connected in a way or another and despite such
vast cultural variety, ideals, physical appearances and genders we share so much more than just the genetic makeup and yet we often
hit invisible barriers trying to communicate with each other.
No matter how far apart we all are we still look at the same moon at night and get warmed by the same sun during the day.
The universe is vast, so large that we are incapable to imagine the full scope of it in our minds without using substitutes.
Compared to it our lifespans and actions are so small and insignificant and yet no matter how tiny we are, we all consist of the same
fundamental building blocks as the stars we gaze upon on a clear night and when we pass away the atoms remain and become part
of something new, perhaps a new life.
It is beautiful if you just think about it, just by being alive we all share genetics with every life form on our planet and on a quantum
level we are all connected with each other and furthermore with everything that the universe consists of. We literally are the children
of the stars and stardust we become.
As perhaps everyone else who has ever walked this earth I often asked myself the question of who I am, trying to define myself,
trying to determine my purpose, my role in the bigger picture.
Talking to others and reading I have learned many different views shared by others.
Some may define themselves by their work and lifestyle, some by their achievements and social status, some feel a certain calling
that defines their purpose in life, some are a reflection of how their surrounding perceives them, others identify themselves by their
physical appearance and some strife to become the heroes they admired by following their footsteps.
There is no right answer to any of it, there is no universal rule or pillar that defines what we are or what we should be.
Personally I define myself by my actions and all my accumulated knowledge but as it changes, I change, sometimes a little and
sometimes a lot, depending on how much impact certain events or information have on me.
No matter how we may describe ourselves to others, we will never really, truly know each other because despite being
an evolved species (according to our own definition) we still lack sophisticated communication skills.
To store and share information we make use of spoken and written languages and many other language forms such as music,
imagery, mathematics, physics etc. and on a high level it works well enough for us as a species to make progress but on the
lower level we often have miscommunications, arguments and fights and I am not talking about language barriers.
Each and every one of us is an immensely complex neurological mechanism. Since our birth we observe, absorb information,
learn, adapt and then try to apply what we have learned.
Our thought processes both conscious and subconscious are very complex and streamlined.
I compare our thoughts and feeling to small and infinitely, perfectly shaped marbles rolling around our mind simultaneously
at speeds our physical bodies could never keep up with.
However as soon as we open our mouths we are forced to use words to convey our thoughts, but words are mere concepts
and substitutes. Words are crude, edgy cubes and since the young age we learn to speak we constantly try to equalize the
meaning of those words with other people.
The concepts are easy enough for basic things; such is cold or warm, colors, shapes.
We all know what a circle looks like but when it comes to feelings and other complex though processes word often fail us.
In order to translate the thought that is an infinitely perfect marble we try to construct a similar shape made of edgy words
and the more words we use the closer it will resemble the shape but also larger and the more tedious the conversation becomes,
so ultimately we simply rely on those who listen to interpret our words the same way and in my opinion is almost impossible
unless we are talking science or basic facts.
There simply is no way for us to compare our feelings on a scale that would allow us to truly understand each other 100%.
We compress complex emotions into a single word such as disappointment, hatred, love or lust but just a small difference in
our experience as a child or our current hormonal state might affect our perception of one of those very words leaving us
unable to be sure if the others think exactly the same way about certain concepts.
It can be something as simple as looking at a picture together, we may see the same shapes and on a high level we certainly
can agree on many fundamental and basic impressions of that image but on a low level, no matter how small or subtle we all
will perceive it differently based on our own experiences and state of mind.
In a way it is sad but as I always like to say, every stick has two ends and so there are bound to be positive aspects to it as well.
If we could all share our thoughts simultaneously, life in certain ways might be really boring.
Sometimes discovering someone slowly is what makes it exciting, after all we are still a hormone driven and curious species
and while we always should try to strive for development we also need to embrace some of our primal instincts instead of
perceiving them as shortcomings.
One should try not to judge others prematurely and never mistake someone’s lack of articulation skills with a lack of social or
quantitative intelligence. A lot of people in our society are simply being introverted or isolated due to other reasons and
therefor lack practice communicating verbally witch may result in subtle or less subtle differences in their perception of certain
words or concepts.
Some people may understand certain actions or expressions as impolite while others would see no fault with the way
they conduct themselves.
Everyone is different; some may connect easier with each other, some need to discover each other first and sometimes
agreements are purely superficial as means to a goal.
That being said, I thank you for reading and hopefully connecting with me a bit more.